I See You

At this moment – I am not sure about something – I am reconsidering – something is a

question – reconsider our assumptions – and I know this is not really occurring – Because

there is a story

Perhaps there are two ways of telling – perhaps is another way of saying – there are many

many more – Do I need your help to exist at all – no not really – but I do need you in

order to move from this spot

This story began with you – it began when you sleepwoke – it began when you chose -

you led yourself to this text – and you led me to this text – that only sounds strange – I

have no secrets – when I am in between decisions

I want to be everyone - hold all points of view – close – Can you hear them -

hear the shapes – cracking – a cracking sound – I return with the essay – in

the form of a body – anybody will do

The only difference between humans happens in the act of seeing – our gaze tradition -

You see we cover a great deal – our eye ability is eternal – in other words – when we

witness another body – it is a self recognized

What have we decided – there is one body – A person is only a point of view – but I

didn't come here to talk about that – Hold that please until I finish – there is one body -

Words resonate because of your memory – the memory before everything was repeated

as if that means anything

My new body is strange – but I have memory of this image – mine – all stories came to

me in a sound – I was busy – with another language – who told you – that in order to

exist – you must reflect a desire – that's not desire is it

I don't want to reference or go back – rather to come with me – that's right -

continue – It is African – I call it gaze tradition – or rather I was the saw it that way

because a memory recorded a moment over and over – you can train yourself to

remember anything

I see you – Africa – there is a tradition – of seeing into – to recognize – someone – the pupil

the eye – beyond the soul – namesnamesnamesnames – I would say rather the motion of

one existence in relation to spirit – the reason for being – I see your truth

That is not a projection

It is a beautiful tradition – that assumes a body – and when I looked at the child -

imagine the mother and child – because on some level this occurs with every baby – the

gaze – Let us return to where it is known – awake – The mother says – My eye – the

way it moved – told my baby this is who we are – this is how I see myself – and you -

my truth about you is in the choices I make with my eyes – how I love to look at you -

your eyes are learning what movements to make – they learn how to love your image -

The eyes that look at you become the eyes you look with – Imagine the eye that knows

this – cultivating your humanness – the formation of what we call memory begins

Imagine the way you walk – Do you walk the same way – move the body in basic sameness

year after year – Well that sameness is also your decision – you know the one we are

remembering – the assumed one – The feeling of natural – What is that really – and is it

that thing you just decided upon – Is it that all the time – Is that easy

You don't need this text to remember with you – I prefer collaboration – The part that

writes – that me – the part that rewrites – that you – planting eyes in the text like seeds

There is absence – that's how I remembered you body and eyes – because I missed them

Legacy – from slavery – this did not come out of nowhere – not there – not here in the text

This is where the body went – specific – well disappearance is an old mirror – Remember

the point of view I spoke of – whose body is ultimately a coloration – and without the beauty

of gaze tradition it sounds like this

I wonder did ancestor hear this child turn to the other child – What you lookin at – You got a eye

problem – unbearable gaze sees you seeing me like I see me – looking at me – I'm still here

in the text – It is impossible for me to be anywhere else at this moment