At this moment – I am not sure about something – I am reconsidering – something is a
question – reconsider our assumptions – and I know this is not really occurring – Because
there is a story
Perhaps there are two ways of telling – perhaps is another way of saying – there are many
many more – Do I need your help to exist at all – no not really – but I do need you in
order to move from this spot
This story began with you – it began when you sleepwoke – it began when you chose -
you led yourself to this text – and you led me to this text – that only sounds strange – I
have no secrets – when I am in between decisions
I want to be everyone - hold all points of view – close – Can you hear them -
hear the shapes – cracking – a cracking sound – I return with the essay – in
the form of a body – anybody will do
The only difference between humans happens in the act of seeing – our gaze tradition -
You see we cover a great deal – our eye ability is eternal – in other words – when we
witness another body – it is a self recognized
What have we decided – there is one body – A person is only a point of view – but I
didn't come here to talk about that – Hold that please until I finish – there is one body -
Words resonate because of your memory – the memory before everything was repeated
as if that means anything
My new body is strange – but I have memory of this image – mine – all stories came to
me in a sound – I was busy – with another language – who told you – that in order to
exist – you must reflect a desire – that's not desire is it
I don't want to reference or go back – rather to come with me – that's right -
continue – It is African – I call it gaze tradition – or rather I was the saw it that way
because a memory recorded a moment over and over – you can train yourself to
remember anything
I see you – Africa – there is a tradition – of seeing into – to recognize – someone – the pupil
the eye – beyond the soul – namesnamesnamesnames – I would say rather the motion of
one existence in relation to spirit – the reason for being – I see your truth
That is not a projection
It is a beautiful tradition – that assumes a body – and when I looked at the child -
imagine the mother and child – because on some level this occurs with every baby – the
gaze – Let us return to where it is known – awake – The mother says – My eye – the
way it moved – told my baby this is who we are – this is how I see myself – and you -
my truth about you is in the choices I make with my eyes – how I love to look at you -
your eyes are learning what movements to make – they learn how to love your image -
The eyes that look at you become the eyes you look with – Imagine the eye that knows
this – cultivating your humanness – the formation of what we call memory begins
Imagine the way you walk – Do you walk the same way – move the body in basic sameness
year after year – Well that sameness is also your decision – you know the one we are
remembering – the assumed one – The feeling of natural – What is that really – and is it
that thing you just decided upon – Is it that all the time – Is that easy
You don't need this text to remember with you – I prefer collaboration – The part that
writes – that me – the part that rewrites – that you – planting eyes in the text like seeds
There is absence – that's how I remembered you body and eyes – because I missed them
Legacy – from slavery – this did not come out of nowhere – not there – not here in the text
This is where the body went – specific – well disappearance is an old mirror – Remember
the point of view I spoke of – whose body is ultimately a coloration – and without the beauty
of gaze tradition it sounds like this
I wonder did ancestor hear this child turn to the other child – What you lookin at – You got a eye
problem – unbearable gaze sees you seeing me like I see me – looking at me – I'm still here
in the text – It is impossible for me to be anywhere else at this moment
